negativity

Yes, I know i'm quite negative about myself and my body-image, but I can't help it.  I don't feel "healthy" and I don't think I look "healthy" either.  My doctor is forever on my ass about losing weight, and yes I know I should for health reason's, but honestly, i'd be perfectly happy if I could look good, and feel good in my own skin, whatever that weight may be.

I know i'll never look like this:

But i'd be perfectly happy if I looked like this: