enough

I stepped on the scale this morning for the 1st time in over 3 months.  I'm back to my original weight when I started Weight Watchers almost exactly one year ago today.  239 lbs.  I was 241 lbs when I started last year.

I lost 24 lbs last year on the plan.  It worked for me.  I just honestly let myself go.  I quit to easily.  Winter was hard, winter was busy, there are no real excuses other than I got lazy.

Losing weight isn't my only issue.  I eat like crap, I don't exercise, and I'm smoking again.  These are my three vices, and I need to fix them.  Soon.  For my sake, for my kid's sake, for my families sake.  I just don't know where to begin.

We're going away on vacation next week to a tropical paradise.  I'm going to take that week to just live and have fun and not worry about it, but when I get back, i'm buying patches again to get me to quit smoking, i'm vowing to eat right again, and I have to start exercising.  I'll start slowly, and try not to guilt myself too much as I know I can't expect it all to happen immediately overnight, but I have to start somewhere right?

I can do this.  I will do this.