Lunch

2 large pasta salad's
chicken salad wrap with lettuce, tomato and cucumber
small bag of Frito's BBQ Rings
small bag of Hostess Munchies snack mix
coffee...coffee...coffee...coffee...
oh yeah, and a caffeine free diet Coke.

It's no wonder i'm falling asleep at my freakin' desk today.

I feel like shit.  Absolute shit.  And I don't know what to do about it.  All I want to do is eat.  And eat and eat.

We had to do a quick dinner last night due to time constraints so McDonald's was our option, I swear I could of eaten 6 big mac's.

No idea why I feel like this, I just do.

It doesn't help that we're going on a beach vacation in 2 1/2 weeks for a wedding.  I'll be surrounded in skinny people in bikini's half my age likely.

Depressing.  Yet all I want to do is eat more.  Like I don't care.

Maybe it's time I kicked my carb habit.  Not to mention the copious amounts of caffeine and diet coke that i'm consuming.

I was doing so well last summer when I joined Weight Watchers.  I lost 24 lbs and felt fantastic.  Then winter came and I hibernated.  And Ate.  And ate.

And the 24 lbs are back, likely more.  I wouldn't really know as I haven't stepped on my scale in like 2 months cause i'm totally chicken shit.